i can't handle this. i can't. it's taking waaayy too long to lose this weight i am down to 170 pounds even and i need to get to 98. my goal weight keeps getting lower and it's taking sooo... fucking long to lose this weight... it helps to get it out even if i know pretty much nobody reads this. i've started taking two different diet pills and that seems to help. i dont eat unless i absolutly have to in order to keep up the illusion of health. i know i need help but honestly, i've been through treatment before and it just wasn't worth it. i really really need to lose this weight faster. please comment or send me a message with any advice you have on losing weight quicker. i would really appreciate it... 

 I read an awesome weight loss book called The Skinny Bitch. Guess who's vegan now.. me! Oh and I'm never drinking soda again, ever! you would not believe how fucking much that shit makes you gain- yes girls even "diet" soda is fattening. Get this, the aspertame in diet soda actually causes your body to produce more fat cells. Gross! Splenda is no saint either- it causes cancer and diabetes! I really reccomend reading this book if you are looking to lose weight or just get healthier. It was written by Rory Freedman, a former agent for Ford Models, and Kim Barnouin, a former model who holds a Masters of Science degree in Holistic Nutrition. It's a great book that tells you how nasty the shit your putting in your body really is and then gives you non-disgusting alternitives. Be warned it encourages veganism. Even if you don't want to go vegan read it. They have some awesome tips on weight loss. Oh and get this they have a chapter on safe fasting! New favorite book? I think so.

xoxo,

xAsHLeYxAnOnYmOuSx

And as always, some thinspo for the day:

So much food... god. it's so hard not to eat it all. My parents are still oblivious to the fact that i'm not eating. i really hate the super bowl. it combines two pointless things: football and overeating. the only thing good about it is that my parents are so distracted, they don't even care if i sleep all day. i haven't been to the gymn in a while. i need to go tomorrow. i don't think anyone will actually read this... but hey, it's a great way to vent... well i'm running out of things to say. any suggestions on how to have more energy without eating?